Saturday, October 26, 2013

A sinner I am

25 October 2013

I had this feeling that i am going to die today. In my imagination i saw death today. There, in those dingy by-lanes of that world, it looked straight in my eyes. I can't say if i was afraid or not. May be i was. May be i was not. But the only thing that crossed my mind was the thought of these two people.

1. Him
2. Maa

There was this crazy sensation that ran through my veins. I found solace by looking at my watch. It saved me from the harsh clutches of this imaginary death.

(I did not write about the third thing that ran down me. It was about what will happen to my blog. )

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By the time the day ended, I have sinned. I pray for strength, peace, and  li'l bit of forgiveness. Hope i will be granted at least a small packet of each.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

वक़्त बह चला


चाहा तो था की पन्ने भर दूँगी
शब्दो को पिरो के जाल बुन दूँगी
इन गहराइयों में समंदर है
या कोई खाई- समेट कर इन्हे मुट्ठी में भर लूँगी

सन्नाटो के परतो पे सतरंगी संसार बसे  है 
सीपियो और सहेलियो में 
अंतर तो कुछ भी नही
क्या सोचा था और क्या जोड़ती चली गई
शब्दों के मायने वक़्त ले चला बहा 

अहसास आज कुछ इस तरह से उमड़े है
काग़ज़ो के साँचे में ढलना गवारा नही
खामोशियो की ज़ुबानी
भूले बिसरे ही सही
दिल तक झीनी झीनी सी दस्तक
पहुचाती  तो होगी


And so like this, footloose emotions and far from organized thoughts tangle forever with words. Not always they mean something. But at sudden burst of moments they mean the world to me.  And so like this, today, with random and free-flowing juxtaposition of words, MyWhiteWindow celebrates her glorious sixth anniversary.  

Thank you for being an integral part of my journey. Without you all, it would not have been this much memorable and worthwhile.

~*~

Word of the Day is: 
Kintsukuroi: (Japanese) "to repair with gold"; the art of repairing pottery with gold or silver lacquer and understanding that the piece is more beautiful for having been broken.
My blog stands as a witness to my Kintsukuroi moments. Rather it stands as my broken pottery repaired with gold.

The word has been suggested by Sri (Sridevi Datta) who blogs here at Bhelpuri Unlimited. Thank you so much Sri.

~*~

Special Mention: 

  • Corinne who blogs here at Everyday Gyan. This year blogging would not have been this much glorious without her efforts and best wishes. In terms of writing and blogging, this has been my best year. Thank you Corry. 
  • Write Tribe

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P:S: Subinoy, a good friend of mine has gifted my blog her own domain name. So did you guys notice it? But in the process, I have lost all the Facebook likes and g+1 shares. This makes me sad indeed. Please guide me on how can I restore them back.

Love,
Pree

Saturday, September 7, 2013

De Madrugada

It was not an ordinary day anymore. Within a flash of second something had just changed. Some kind of magic was there in the air that got hold of us to cast its spell on. I felt it; you too. You knew it; I too. Next, the only thing I remember seeing is the flashes of lights even in the darkness around. And I was lost, the moment your trembling lips touched mine.

Amid the hustle and bustle of the chirping  and cooing of birds, lingering frail scent of something 'morning' in the air, beads of  softest sunlight, and a surprising faint trail of vehicles passing us; suddenly in those mysterious minutes  we stole and sealed our moments of togetherness inside an auto that drove us through the bumpy roads of Saket to drop me home.

I wanted it; you too. And we did it.

In those two minutes I saw the moon, the stars and the sun together. I felt the power of the Cosmos within; from me it spreading its wings to you and then finally settling within us.

No kisses afterward could ever recreate the same magic. I still live it in my many memories and imaginations; and in the hearts of my heart the feeling it evokes is something that is beyond my ability to express in words. Words are still not fortunate enough to express these sweet nothings of life and everything that the heart feels and desires.

#Whlist1: That kiss. That very 1st kiss that we shared together. I want to live that for one more time. For real. And for real. I know that certain things can never be recreated and hence there lies the magic of it.

~*~

Madrugada(n) (Spanish):It means the time between midnight and dawn. It simply means early morning/dawn
De Madrugada: At dawn.
Lethologica: When you can't think of the word for something.

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I am taking part in The Write Tribe Festival of Words 1st - 7th September 2013.

My Theme: To write on seven words that

  • We/I don't hear generally 
  • Preferably Non-English words that are untranslatable in English 
  • Let's see, how can I include more varieties. 
  • And in the process to self-discover myself. 
 Let me know what do you think about my choice of theme for this Seven days of Writing Festival.

Word suggestions are highly welcomed. So com'on bring it on. :)


P.S: This write-up was originally written on 25th July'13. It was just a scribble entry on my phone and I wanted to rewrite it before I post but due to time constraint and lack of creativity I am posting it as it is by making just a minor change to suit it to the theme and title of my post

  • One of the lines was originally written as 'Amid the hustle and bustle of trails of vehicles passing us, that late evening we stole and...'
  • In the draft copy the title of the post was Stolen Moments of Togetherness.

Write Tribe

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Wordy-Nerdy Pree

I am not able to write anything. My Muse is on leave and even after spending around two hours, I am unable to write. I have one Scintilla in mind which is not letting me to sleep but I guess it is still not the right time for it to take shape in words. But I promise to myself that I am going to do it soon. Unlike before I am not dumping my visions and ideas in the backyard of my heart anymore. Please wish me luck.

I am guilty of not writing my Day 4 post and more guilty of not being able to visit much blogs. My sincere apologies to you all and I promise that I will be visiting your blogs soon. After idling around for months, my life has suddenly become super fast and busy, and this had to happen in the mid of the Festival, sigh!

I am touched and overwhelmed beyond words by seeing the huge response and appreciation my Theme and the posts have received. Now all those sleepless nights I have spent writing them even amid neck-breaking work loads and health issues seems totally worthwhile. I thank each and every one from the bottom of my heart.

I am half asleep already, and my thoughts aren’t in synch with my body but as I don’t want to miss another day, I have decided to go easy on myelf by listing few things about me albeit in my wordy-nerdy style.

1. I am a Bibliophile (n) the lover of books. But off late I am guilty of 積ん読 i.e. Tsundoku (n.)(Japanese) the act of buying books and not reading them and/or letting books pile up unread on shelves or floors or nightstands.

2. I often suffer from Drapetomania: an overwhelming urge to run away. This word has a sad history behind it. It's a term derived in the slave days and was used to describe the "disease" in which the symptoms were "a slave that was addicted to attempting escape or escaping slavery..."

In my case, my heart and mind are always in the need of a holiday. And where does is want to go? of course to misty magical magnanimous mountains.

3. Tucked inside my heart are many Swevens (n) a vision seen in sleep; dream. And strangely all my swevens are related to a book or two I might pen in future. Will I? Who knows. And many if my posts here the the blog are a result of the swevens.

4. I am no doubt a Logastellus (n) a person whose love of words is greater than the knowledge of words. But off late I am turning fast towards Legolepsy, A fascination or obsession with words. And I am going nuts over Eutony, the pleasantness of a word’s sound.

5. I have this Scintilla of a story from one such non-english word. But i am not yet able to give it a shape with my words. Soon soon, pretty soon. Scintilla means a tiny, brilliant flash or spark; a small thing; a barely visible trace.

6. The most beautiful word that I learnt today is Aisling (n) a vision or a dream; an Irish poetic genre where Ireland appears to the poet in the form of a beautiful woman.

 7. No matter what I will always believe in Meliorism, the belief that the world gets better; the belief that humans can improve the world. Because we all have Orenda in us i.e. a mystical force present in all people that empowers them to affect the world, or to affect change in their own lives. Yes I just have proved this to myself. Yay!!

Phew!! That’s it for today.


Questions of the day,

1. Is there any genre where a country/city/town appears to the poet/writer in the form of a handsome and intelligent man?

2. Share with me your one Velleitie (n) a wish or a powerful desire for something that nonetheless is not or cannot be followed by actions meant to pursue it.

I can see a lot of things related to Dreams and Visions here. A news to me it is. I guess I am on the right track!

P.S: Please pardon mistakes and typos in this post. 

 I am taking part in The Write Tribe Festival of Words 1st - 7th September 2013. 

 My Theme: To write on seven words that 

  • We/I don't hear generally Non-English words 
  •  Preferably words that are untranslatable in English 
  •  Let's see, how can I include more varieties. 
  •  And in the process to self-discover myself. 
 Let me know what do you think about my choice of theme for this Seven days of Writing Festival. 


 Word suggestions are highly welcomed. So com'on bring it on. :)

Write Tribe

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Paracosm

And then mamma I was dragged there by my collars. It was a huge room with stars all around. I have never seen so many stars before. 

But then baby, don’t you know stars reside only in the sky? 

And that’s why I was scared mom, and you know I could even touch them. 

Oh! I see! So did not your fingers get burnt? 

Umm…. I do not remember that. Did it? But mom, that’s not important. 

Ok! My darling, then what is it that’s important? Tell me sweetheart!

You interrupt so much that I tend to forget. Now shhh… and listen to me. 

Shhhhhhhh! 

There he was…. An alien with horns. 

An alien with horns? Eh? 

That’s what! A huge pair of horns and blinking red eyes. 

But that’s how ghosts look like and not aliens! No? 

But mom ghosts don’t keep remotes to close the spaceship's door. Or do they? 

So it was some hi-tech ghost you mean, right? 

And he had a spaceship. You know mom … lights like this coming out of it. I was scared and I closed my eyes. I wanted to shout. Shout out loud. But before I could, he abducted me. He, the alien. Like it happens in the TV. 

And as soon as the audio recorder stopped with the sobbing sound of the child, the parents looked up at the psychiatrist for his much awaited verdict. They were bemused at the story but the slight marks that were present on various body parts of the child had definitely made them worried. 

Paracosm it is, the doctor told them. A child’s mind is very imaginative, he continued, and it often lands them in their world of fantasy. As they are too young and innocent, they cannot differentiate between the two worlds. But there is nothing to worry about as with age it eases up. 

But what about the body marks, doctor? They are of course not left by some imaginary alien! 

Not at all! She must have hurt herself while imagining things. Remember that they cannot differentiate between the two worlds and unfortunately many a time end up hurting themselves. For them their la-la land is for real. Make sure she does not have access to harmful and sharp objects and better I advice you to not leave her alone, lest she harms herself again. 

But she is scarred and ends up crying after telling her story? What to do about that? 

Hmm, in the next session bring her along. I will...... 

 ***

Meanwhile, back at her cousin’s place, li’l Diksha was again abducted by that hi-tech alien. All of five, the poor child could not differentiate between the real stars and the glow-in-the-dark ones. The alien this time took extra care to leave no such marks on her petite body. While she was too scared to even attempt at making a feeble cry, he, his uncle kept on devouring her to satiate his filthy desires. While the khol mixed tears smeared her face, this way it was much easier for him to trample her innocence in the garb of paracosm. 

 ~*~ 

"A paracosm is a detailed imaginary world, or fantasy world, involving humans and/or animals, or perhaps even fantasy or alien creations. Commonly having its own geography, history, and language, it is an experience that is often developed during childhood and continues over a long period of time: months or even years.Source: Wikipedia
 ~*~ 

I am taking part in The Write Tribe Festival of Words 1st - 7th September 2013. 

My Theme: To write on seven words that 

  • We/I don't hear generally 
  • Preferably Non-English words that are untranslatable in English 
  • Let's see, how can I include more varieties. 
  • And in the process to self-discover myself. 
 Let me know what do you think about my choice of theme for this Seven days of Writing Festival. 


Word suggestions are highly welcomed. So com'on bring it on. :) 

Write Tribe

P.S: I am not too happy with today's work as my muse simply refused to work and after much nudge this is what my muse led me to.